Mcgregor

Since she read “Peter Rabbit” when she was just a little girl, she started having conversations with herself. Mostly in the bathroom, having a bath or taking a shower, while undressing and dressing back again.

I guess it happened in the bathroom because it was her true solitary moment where she was alone to think about herself, so she thought of herself aloud.

Firstly she started talking to a little man called “Mcgregor” she talked to him to ask for advice and his opinion about things that had occurred during the day. Mysteriously this little man was always younger tan her but he was wiser, that how she had made him up.

Later on she would take him on her trips, her suitcase was a bus for this little man and his family. Mcgregor had a family and she would time to time ask him about his mother and sometimes she would ask if he had a girlfriend yet. Mcgregor would always answer her questions. She knew his voice came from her lips but she never worried about it, she loved speaking, wondering and asking things, all sorts of things to Mcgregor.

Time would go by and she wasn´t anymore a little girl, now she was pretty much a girl , and she wouldn’t have so many conversations with Mcgregor , but she did have them , she knew that he was talking to her though her voice but she never really cared. The funny thing was that she had stopped asking about his family, now she only talked to him to wonder about his advice about love, that´s how she called it. He would always answer with enthusiasm about this sort of questions. Many times he would tell her you don´t focus on love you are obsessed with relationships. She would agree with him but never take his advice really.

Interestingly Mcgregor spoke in Spanish all of her childhood but later on he would speak perfect English as well and a few times he spoke French too.

One day when she was a woman not just a girl she thought of Mcgregor not as someone “external” , she realized that Mcgregor could well be her inner voice. That talked to her so he would be clearer on his answers to every questions she asked.

The last questions up to today she asked Mcgregor was:

-How come you are a man if I am a girl, how come you represent yourself as a man if you are my inner voice ¿?

- What does that have to do with anything ¿? Does it matter ¿? Don´t we all have both sexes, genders and everything inside us ¿? Do you feel any different projecting me on your mind as a man o as a woman¿? If you want to know about my nature you better think about it yourself.

This was the first time Mcgregor would question her and when it happened she felt humble.